Today is day 4 of my 21-day fast. I did not write yesterday but there wasn’t much to say other than I was very hungry. In the evening I went out to see Tango Fire at the Peacock Theatre. It was excellent and a good night out was just what I needed. Getting there was difficult due to the tiredness in my legs so I had to drive to Eltham station and at the other end get a taxi to the theatre which is only a 10 minute walk away. Having been a Pilates instructor and very fit this is difficult for me. Luckily the theatre had a lift so I didn’t have to negotiate stairs. The show was excellent! During pre- show drinks I also discovered that sparkling water with lemon or lime in it makes a really nice drink. I have never liked sparkling water so this feels a bit special. I got home and tried it with strawberries and mint and it was delicious. And kind of tricked my stomach into thinking that it had eaten. It just shows how food deprived I am that I am getting really excited over sparkling water!
I woke up feeling pretty good today and thinking yay – the feel-good part of the fast has finally hit me. I got up and made breakfast for Charlie and today even walked him to pre-school but on the way began to feel very hungry . By the time I time I got back I was feeling nauseous and desperate to eat something. Instead, I made my liver flush drink which is a combination of water with salt, fulvic minerals, quiksilver, bodybio PC oil, apple, lemon and phosphorus drops. It actually tastes really good. Something in it is very sweet and I’m not sure what it is but I do have to take my time drinking it.
I look forward to finishing it so that I can then have my “breakfast” which consists of a green juice with lots of kale, spinach, apple, mint, ginger and a bit of garlic. It actually tastes like a meal. Getting used to the amount of juicing ingredients needed has been difficult and I haven’t been having as much juice per day as I would like. I make it all up in the morning and drink it throughout the day but inevitably it runs out too quickly. I was using half a bag of spinach and half a bag of kale but I am now increasing that to a full bag of spinach and a full bag of kale every day. And today I added blueberries. It was pretty good.
I am also supposed to be drinking a carrot juice concoction but I actually really don’t like carrot juice so that has been proving difficult. However, after emailing Dr Callebout and getting an instant reply, I have been told that I can use beetroot juice instead. Or mix both together. I will try.
One other thing that I will say about this fast is that it is imperative to slow down my pace of life. Everything takes so long (making the juice, making the liverflush, making the different water concoctions, taking constant supplements, doing the breathing exercises) and my energy is a little lower than usual, so that I just have to slow down my pace and accept that I am not going to be superwoman for awhile. This was hard at first but I’m getting used to it. I am generally worn out by about noon and then decamp to bed for awhile to chill, snuggle the dog and watch crap tv (I’m hooked on “Say Yes to the Dress” and I can’t explain why). I also can’t go up and down stairs easily anymore so the days of “running upstairs” to get something are past. Now if it can wait, it does. This new mindset is hard for me but probably very good for me and something I will try to take with me into the next phase of my programme and my life.
That’s all for today. I have to go up to the hospital for an MRI now to see what is causing my sciatica and whether there is something more sinister causing my muscle weakness than the hormonal treatment. I’ll get the results next Tuesday when I see my oncologist. If it is the medication then I will have to discuss other options with him, if other options exist. At some point I will have to make the difficult decision as to when to stop with the traditional treatments (which we know can’t cure me and can actually increase suffering) and rely on the supplementary ones. But I will keep an open mind and see what the results are and what my oncologist comes up with.
Yours in health and beetroot.